I take this one last bow
For this pitiful crowd
That I once adored, even begged for.
Their empty praises and promises
Fill the room with each applause,
But can't fill my void.
I'm giving You my script
No longer speaking the lines
That my will wrote for me,
But following Your heart
Throughout every scene.
Because when the curtains are drawn,
I want to show You
That You died for a purpose,
Cause my life never proves
That I was worth it.
This is such a beautiful and scary time in my life. Graduation is literally right around the corner—only 3 months away! It’s so easy to cling to the people around me, asking them what I should do with my life, searching for approval in every way from my family, trying to make sure that I’m making the right decisions for my future. The hard part is getting rid of all that and turning to God in every aspect of my decisions for my future. Worrying about the world’s approval will never get me anywhere and definitely won’t get the Gospel anywhere. It will only make me hold back and be scared when God calls me. I don’t want to be that girl—I want to be His girl!
Long story short, I don’t really know what I’m going to do after graduation. I don’t know where I’ll live, where I’ll work, how I will survive financially, etc.—but what I do know is that God has a purpose for me (Jeremiah 29:11) and it is my desire to follow Him through everything. This poem talks about “the stage” of life—it’s easy to perform for the people around us and to create our own script, but when my life is over, will my “performance” show that I was worth Christ’s death on the cross? Will my life show His love and mercy? Ephesians 4:1-2 says, “As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.” My prayer is that as Christians (myself included), we will start living lives that are worthy of this calling that God has given us so that we can bring others to know Him and bring glory to His name! Are you living a life that’s worthy of the calling you have received?